It seems you might be referring to the work of Jessica Mesman
If the name "Messman" refers to a specific username or a different author, here are a few other possibilities: the pilgrimage by messman
There is a woman on deck 7, starboard side. I see her every day at 0600, before the sun has fully claimed the sky. She wears a heavy wool sweater despite the humidity of the engine room seeping up through the vents. She doesn't read. She doesn't look at her phone. She just stares. She is waiting, I think. We are all waiting. It seems you might be referring to the
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If you believe this work exists, try the following: She doesn't read
: Skye Fargo, the "Trailsman," a rugged survivalist and expert tracker who often finds himself entangled with dangerous outlaws and beautiful women. Plot Summary
Thorne describes an irresistible pull toward the bow. The messman, in this state, abandons his apron, his ladle, his menu chalkboard. He walks past the sleeping crew, up the ladders, through the cargo holds, until he stands at the very tip of the vessel, facing the open sea.